In this rainy day, my mood is a little low,someone said I am a sentimental girl,and also a sturdily girl, I am longing for fairy tale love all the time, take everything too beautifuk at first, if some bad thing happened, there is alway has the way to deal with, this idea alonging me from past to now, but now I know I am wrong, I just cared for my own feeling, did not consider others opinion and suggestion, a little worried about my cases now.

Why there are a lot of lovers can not be together? I want to be a free people, there is no bondage restrict me. I want a happy and beautiful love. but life alway make fun of me.

I am so helpless now. I do not want to lost my happiness. we should try to keep the hard-earned love //

Today is Halloween’s day, wish we have a happy and interesting day and weekend!

Yesterday one of the article attracted me, the story was about two lover, the boy's family is rich and he is handsome, really popular in the gilr's eyes. but he did not care them, live his own life simply.

One day he met a gilr, she is special compared with others, really brave and lovely, but her family is not rich, everyday earn money by hard-working,even this, her life full of pleasure and happiness, the boy admire her personality.

Everyday he will see her, he put down his exalted status, but adapt the poor simple life for her. He nearly abandon everything for her,,just want to be together with the girl. watching....watching....I was moved by the plots. my tears dropping slowly.

I was recalled my own things, I thought I was nearly like the boy, I do not know how things will change, my own story is really complex, sometimes I thought I was changed another person, before I am shy, coward, unconfident, cold-hearted, selfish, childish and so on. now i find seemed the bad defacts gradually disappearing.

I am changing, I am growing, I am studying from the frustration. now although life did not so good, but I am brave and confident to confront, I hope everything will be fine! I am expecting the bright future!

Now I seldom write English articles, just do not know what should I write, yesterday night my friend suggested me go back to shenzhen, they knew I am not happy here, I am very surprised by what she said first, I thought she is making joke with me, then she said: “she is serious”. I really do not know how to answer her, I know they are cared me and considered me for saying that.

But I really can not go away right now, because I rent house here for one year, and signed the contract. The job here just doing for two months, everything is steady in my eyes, but on the contray, I really expect time can pass by quickly for the dull life here. May be I sacrifice too much, just wish what I did is worth while.

Then my friend encourage me brave and sturdily to confront the frustration here, I was glad everythime when I am in a bad mood, my friends aways by my side wish me and help me. I will be here live well and work well, when I am going back to shenzhen, I will show you a confident and brave girl.

When I am working in the road by myself, my heart is empty, listening to the music, it seemed I am just a passerby in the city, so strange about everything. I know I am so perplexed, I know I need someone direct my way, what will I do in the future? Which city should I stay? I really do not know.

Everything that all out of control, we can not predict tommorrow, may be meet someone，your life will totally changed, so really a mistery about the future, will you get along with the common people or the excellent people? Does your life-partner is the one that you are longing for? Will you follow others but deny your opinion? For me, I do not like go with the stream, I always thought my opinion is right from my first sense, luckly it is seldom wrong,

Today suddenly skip over my cousin’s album, I am so amazed that a lot of memories that I forgot . she changed a lot—more beautiful than before, one year did not see her, feel really strange, also including my family, may be I am adapt the life ouside, everytime when I am return back home, I feel so boring at home, now we are all gradually estrange our rootedness hometown, for working in far away cities. The sensation become more and more common, I do not know if this new year I return back home, what feeling will I have since one year leaving, I am now feel so strange about the family.

People is changing, life is changing, Does my opinion changing?—yeah, I find I am changing now gradually, thought more and worry more, someone say this is the mature phenomenon, may be right but may be wrong, no matter what will happen, I will be brave insist my thoughts, seize my happiness confidently, life is a long long way to go, grasping today and make the most of it to do something is important.

The first time that I went shenzhen work for one year as a clerk in a broadcast and culture company, there left me so much memories, at that time just had no feeling about there, because strange environment and people, the sensation about each other is coldhearted, no one care about your needs, just your good friends, so I thought may be here is just for working, if I choose the accommodation I will not stay here, for one year busy and comfortable life there, I am fit for there, including the weather, the job, the people.

But now when I arrive another city—a not fashion, not beautiful, not prosperous, I now feel after one month I still did not have good impression about the city, but I have job here, rent house for one year, so I have to stay here at least one year, here I have so much unhappiness here, including the job, the environment, the weather, something that I can not express, the feeling here is lonely. If I am free, the bad mood about here will come out. The job here is a little dull, everyday upload the picture and describe the goods, and then wait the order, the eight hour working time made me so tired although did not do things, why I am always complain here, I do not know. I have to adapt here in all.

And also there is no time for me to practise writing English blog, and no time reading others good articles, the oral English is also no one to speak, here did not have such environment.

But thinging so much unhappiness I can not change, the most important is I should adapt here, I plan to stay here for one year,so I should make use of one year time, do not waste my youth, my life, and my dream, so I always encourage myself, I am very brave and confident, the little frustration can not easy beat me, I am live as well as before by myself !