Darling, I am tired these days. My heart is wandering everyday, 'cause I do not wanna to restrain myself . Never do the things I do not wanna do any more; never betray my heart any more. But ,darling ,brutal as this world is, how can I live a oystering life ? I wanna be happy ,but happiness never smile to me .Maybe my urge is so large and I do just a girl who is very vulgar. Just chase vanity everyday ,even once I'm thinking I have never done the things which are my real dreams well.

    Do you know what kind of life I wanna ? Just need a camera , a bag, some simple clothes and some money , I wander around the world ---every country ,every place ,every corner. Just wandering.And to experince ,to look for ,to feel ,life will a absolutely different world. So happy ,so free and easy.

  But the reality is reality , that is my dream. I have to wait and to work hard to make my shaking little dream come true . Wait and endure!

  Darling ,support me ,please!

                                 To My Darling

  Darling, from today on, I wanna write letters to you. No matter whoever you are ,wherever you are , I am  and will be waiting for you . Please give me courage to live ,give me belief to enjoy hardship ,'cause I have not met you.

   Darling , every day ,every hour, I am expecting you. I have so many expectation to you . I hope my darling to be a tall and sunny man .Fulling of sunshine, my life will never be rainy , and be tall ,I will never feel scared. I hope my darling to be a man ,who has responsibilities . To be a man , you should be responsible for your country ,your family and your life. I hope my darling to be a man ,who loves his parents very much and who is synpathy to others. Darling , I was always thinking what should I do if my parent would leave me one day  forever .My heart hurts and my tears never stop. Let's  look after our parents together, shall we? And at the same time, darling, you must understand the pain of the people who is in troubles. So  we shoud try our best to help them. For we will also be happy after we have helped others.

   Darling, life is short and the world is so complicated , how can I meet you? And please recognize me one day in the crowd.The faded flower need your spring. Please hold my hands tightly. I will never leave you.Let's together live a wonderful life with each other is near.

   Sometimes , I am so sorrowful ,'cause  I have remembered Li Qingzhao and Zhao Mingcheng , Sanmao and Hexi. How should the rest painful  heart live lonely without lover? So please cherish each other when you have find me. Together ,we confront with everything.