Can we find a way out to move on

Seeing you sitting in front of computer table on the other side out of my reach, I can't find suitable words to talk with you. Even the word "hello" seems lack of vitality. Of course, I could say it out easily. But how about the next? How could we keep on our conversation? If both of us sitting silently and staring at the other photo in a daze, I would rather there was no start at all.

When you went to ask me about my test result, which also gave me the sense that you had the same kind of feeling like I did. You wanted to care more about me but what you promised before caused you to stop thinking of our inchoate relationship. But instinctively, we can't help missing each other crazily.

I was just about to welcome you to my real world, but the opportunity of future career came with a sudden, and it seldom knocks twice. So you should put all energy on it. When reading your sentence "In three years, only care about the career, no love!" It's the feeling like I woke up from a nice dream unwillingly. Why it was three years? Can you reduce it? Cuz it's really hard to foretell what will happen during three years, especially, the most uncertain period in our life. I don't need you to stay wiht me all day along, feeling your love and care is enough. How could we find a way out to keep balance with both? Who could help us?

I noted with a sigh of regret that accidents will happen in life. Sometimes I was thinking of it selfishly. If I never knew your love, we wouldn't get into a jam! But yeah, only myself won't gain the pain. How selfish thought it was! If not, maybe I would miss a chance to own a true lover in my life forever! When this idea occurred to me, I felt full of faith to defeat all problems in front of me.

Although your unrequited love showed six years later, you caught the chance to express it to me last month. When traced back to our middle school life, it seemed nothing left behind expect some common friends. But now, your love gave me a sense of purity and innocence during that period. How much I wish we could develop it better and better as time went by.               

In fact, I never had an affection with a Chinese boy yet. If there is destiny between us, I believe no matter how far away I fly, I'll be back to your side some day! I hope so!