Job--hunting day

  It's hard to believe that I went to five companies to attend interviews those four days continuously, and tomorrow I have another one. God, please tell me when I would stop! I never thought my job-searching day would come so quickly three day-rest after finishing the test. However, there's no more excuse for me to stay in without doing anything worthy. I have to push myself into a fresh start, in this manner to say goodbye to my school life altogether 15 years.

Only four days passed, but why did I feel such a long time I have already spent? Yeah, the day waiting for the reply of interview seemed much longer than ordinary days. There was slim chance for me to get the job easily because work experience was more important to the business world. If they had a better choice to recruit rich expericenced employees, why need they go to choose a jackaroo for internship?

No matter how high English level you have, they pay more attention to your spoken English, especially, when communicating with foreign customers on business. At that moment, the manager really count on your good communication in order to establish relations with clients now or in near future. Yeah, hard task is before me! No way but to head on!

When I went to my cousins' yeaterday evening, they became aware of that I was thinner than a week ago saw me. Yeah, how rough these days! And I had a bad appetite during these kinds of days, so it's easier to loose weight but wouldn't on my purpose.

I was eager to take someone's warm arms to lie down and get rid of my tiredness, but whom could I turn to? Her? No, during her harsh days I wouldn't give her enough care, so I won't look to her for help. Him? I deeply hope so! Whereas seeing him online, I lack courage to chat with him. I'm afraid I'll feel more painful to hear the words from him. From the day we met, I've already cared about everything he did to me. How can I face him again? God, please save me!

It's too late to stop searching jobs on net, so I couldn't slow down the step but to keep on hunting, which looks like a machine that's pressed to start, and it needs way to run till next circle. From the second day, I had that kind of feeling. Although tired as well, there's no sign to stop to have a rest.

No matter bad or good news I will get tomorrow, I hope I could get over it as soon as possible. Make a move first, then another one following! Believe myself!