yesterday, two boys fought with each other in the office becasue of a little thing.
when they began to beat each other, i kept calm, not moving.
oh, not calm, just be silly at that moment.
and spoke out " someone should prevent them from fighting" in a light voice.
after the fighting, i came alive. i asked myself why i didn't stop them myself. why?

he said he loved me.

last year, he told me that he loved me.

he called me one day, and said something to me.

i knew that he wanted to chase me and i told him i didn't like him and asked him not to telephone me again.

he called me everyday, i seldom answered my phone, but i gradually knew something about him.

sometimes when i was in a very good mood, i would answer my phone. because at that time i thought we could be good friend although i didn't want to be lover.

nearly every call i answered was becasue i wanted to persuade him not to chase me. i told him i was very terrible and what shortcomings i had. sometimes i would asked him why he liked me? i would give him an attack as soon as he told me the answer. so he said i was very cruel to him. i often do the similar things like this to him. sometimes i told him how to look for a good girl for him and how to confirm if the girl was a good choice to be his wife and i was not a good choice.

he is good at writing something. he wrote several good poetries to me. the poetries were all bout love.

i don't want to accept him.

this year, i told him that i had a boyfriend, he said he would wait for me. i said to him that he needn't to do it. it had no use. THen he quited his job and went away and told me that he would remember me forever, would contact me.

i said, that was his business, not mine.

yesterday, he told me that he would wait for me until i got married. as usual, i told him he had no hope.

as last, he told me that i couldn't make him give up me.

i don't want to say anything to him, just want to tell him do not bring troubles to me. maybe it is cruel to him, but .....

What is love?

did "the Xiangcai confederation" mean love?

Why it can't be long?

IF you love a person, will you love everything about him or her?

Why a little thing in our life will give impact to our love?

IF you want your love to be forever, maybe you shoould often know what the other think or what the other need. AT least you should understand him or her one day in a month and do something for it.

FOR example, one day, you know the other think that the gesture that you eating is not good enough. HE or she is tired of it. MAYBE  you can have a try to chane.

IN fact, the other shoould be tolerant, and think why you request him or her to do it like you want. DO you have a proper reason for it? is is important for you?

You can't live with love every day. In practical, a lot of things could lower the power of love.

Love is noble. Its existent need many things to be there. as time pass by, it will need more and more. ALthough you love him or her without any request at first.

Maybe you love each other for nothing. but, gradually, love will need more. Because people need to be alive and kee live, love need other things to support.Just the original condition is not enough.

For example, you dont know how to cook a meal, but after your love each other for a year or two, i think you should know it.

People should improve themselves continually. love will continue for everyone is getting knowledge every day. you can't stop.

Love has life, i think, you should feed it continually so that it will be there forever. if you need love, you should feed it together.(6/4,pm,8.30)

today, i think , at first, maybe you love the other with something you know. BUT as time goes, you know more about him or her, and you should love him or her with anything your know. if not, you will ......

yesterday i got up at twenty-five past seven. After i finished all the things we should do every day in the morning, i set out for study at eight.

I spent fifteen minutes walking to the bus stop and it took me half an hour waiting for the bus. there were so many people in it that i stood closely to the back door.

During the journey, some people got off, but more and more got on. what a terrible thing!

People gradually pushed me into the car. there were so many people i nearly couldn't stand straight even not stand in the way what i liked. I had to grasp the back of the chair tightly. oh, what a tired journey i had!

SOMEone complaint that the she staffs should stop people getting on or should not stop if there were no one want to get off.

The conductor replied, they had to stop if someone wanted to get on. Becasue if not, people would accuse them of it, they would have some trouble.

Another one said, there were not enough buses for passengers in the city, he spent long to wait for the bus today.

The conductor said, one of the buses had broken down, so there were so many people. if people in this bus divided into two group, it wouldn't be so crowded.

I think she should have said something else.

i was going to get off, so i turned left and would like to grasp the bell pole, but i grasped nothing but hit someone's back head. Oh, my god. it is not the mistake that grown people will make.  what a embarrassed moment i had!

The young man looked at me for a moment. I appologized to him quickly.

THEN I got off!

I was dumped yesterday, i think.

THE day before yesterday, my BF asked me to marry him and told me that he was planning to have a wedding ceremony at the end of this year.

I told him that i couldn't make it and if we got married, we would have a hard time. we need a lot of money.

MAYBE  i give him a image that i hoped that he should have more money and if not, i wouldn't marry him.

ACtually, i just wanted him to know our ideas were not nature enough to consider having a wedding ceremony or we are too young to be married.

BEcause, according to his behavīor, he gave me a image that he is not grown up. we are not suitable to have a wedding ceremony soon or we will hurt each other.

later, i think he was angry with me. Becasue he gave a message that said he couldn't make me feel safe, because he was useless and had no money. I was very angry when i read it.

because, before this message, i had explianed my real meaning to him, i got very angry, i thought of his message and didn't give him messages on the whole afternoon.

in the end, in order not to misunderstand him, i asked my roommate to read my message and requested her to told me what my BF meaned. she told me that he said nothing, it was very common and i shouldn't be angry. so i sent a message to him and told him that i couldn't marry him this year and i didn't want to marry him next year. a minute later After sending the message to him, i was sure that he was angry with me although my roommate said there was nothing in his message. i regretted i sent message to him.

so far, i haven't received his message. i think i was dumped.

BEcause he didn't give me any words that he wanted to be part, i look at my mobile phone every now and then.

ALthough he is not the ideal BE that i dream, he is very kindhearted. i don't want to miss him. I need nothing just his kindness.

HE is a very common boy except his kindness.HE often keep silence when we meet. it seemed that he couldn't find tha topic to speak to me, but he is a very honest person.

HE has no confidence, i hate it, but i think he will find it some day. at least, i don't want to miss him at this moment.(5/25AM,9.00)

when we arrive at a new place, we will follow the customs it have, not only good customs but bad customs as well. we follow the customs because we respect the people there.

But when a person has bad customs, we all want him to correct. we will blame him or tell him that something about him is not good and fact show that he should improve him. another thing, people don't like you to remind him of these things. if you tell him something, he will think you are not lovely and don't want to see you.

we should remind people of their bad customs or ignore those?

FOR example, my roommate stand up to brush her teeth every day so that water is spilled down to the ground everywhere and on the buckets and basins that we use.

Every day i feel a little disappointed when i see her brush her teeth like that.

I hinted several times that she should correct it, but she didnt seem to understand me. i sometimes think maybe she want to make me angry. several times, i want to tell her clearly that she should improve, but when i think about it, i give up!

to make matters worse, she has many bad customs, i reminded her of some.

Because she is a person that thinking everything about her is the best. I really think that she has no brain.

EVery time, i told her that she should improve her behave, but she think she is good and i am too noisy. I felt disapponted and i think whether many young girls and boys  have a heart of accepting other's suggestion or not?

YESterday, I read a passage about following customs, i think if i should follow her bad customs and if i follow her bad customs, is it show that i respect her?

.........

yesterday was may day. we had only one day off.

my roommate and her senior high school classmates ( three young boys and a girl and the girl's husband) and i went to climbing mountain in a garden in this town.

i had thought of what i would do in may day for nearly a week before may day came.

I didn't make the decision until the day before may day.

the night before, a colleague asked me to go to the green world, but he was a boy and no others would go to with us. in the end, I told him that i couldn't go out with him.

my roommate has a lot of classmates here. when there is one day off or more, she often go out with them.

on may day morning, when she asked me what i would do that day. I told her that i had nothing in mind, so she asked me to go with them.

I got up with her.

before we set out, it rained a little, but later it was windy all day. we had worried more about our dress. Finally, she weared a pair of pants and a short-sleeved sweater and I weared a suit of skirt.

at first, my roommate and i bought some food in a supermarket that if you bought ten yuan of things, you would get a 1.5ml 恰宝水. I spent twenty-seven yuan and got a bottle of water then we got into a bus to find other people.

after half an hour, we met three young boys, one in black T-shirt and balck jeans, one in white T-shirt and light-green jeans, one in bright-blue T-shirt with whitle short-sleeves and gray jeans. The bright-blue is very handsome and lovable.

after it, we went to the girl's family. she was combing her hair.

half an hour later, we were in a little restaurant and eating something. the girl and i were eating noodle, others were eating four plates of dumpling. hehe...

we got into the bus and arrived the destination after fourty minutes. all of us were in high spirits.

when we got off the bus, the first thing caught our sight was a bus that take you to the foot of the mountain if you are willing to pay five yuan.

we all thought that we wanted to climbing just because we wanted to breathe fresh air and relax ourselves. we didn't see that bus any more from the first sight.

we all walked half an hour to get the foot of that mountain.

on the way , first we met a stream and we all washed our hands and face in it. the water in it is very cool.

then we met a archway, first we thought we should go through this archway.  we found we were wrong aften ten minutes' walk and we saw cucumbers on the cucumber trees. i wanted to touch the cucumbers. the bright-blue boy pretended that he really wanted to get a cucumber. the girl blamed him.

the third thing we met was a temple and we went into it to see what happened in it.

first i told that we bought some food and put it in my packbag. the bag was really heavy. but at first no boy helped me to carry it and i was shy to ask them to help me. it was lucky that when i felt tired, the bright-blue boy helped me. on the way, the other boys played jokes on him and he just smiled. though i couldn't understand what they were saying at that moment, i knew they were laugh at him that if he had a crush on me?

after the temple, we chose to walk along a stream and there WERE fish in it. the bright-blue went close to the stream and grasped fish. hehe...

then we began climbing.

.....

'ring....' the telephone rang. SUE hesitated for a minute and took the transmitter/receiver, 'hello?'

'is that SUE? this is CHEN.'

'it's you? I have written it down.'

'really? I really appreciate that! how could I get it?'

SUE lightly bited her lip and hesitated for a few minutes, finally said,'I speak , you write.'

SUE put down the phone then opened the drawer from which she took a diary out .

it was sunny outside, sue's head went blank, nearly fainted. the thin diary book seemed to weigh thousand KG, somehow she couldn't get to that page.

SUE mumbled, needn't be so, what would get? be cool!....

'I really don't know how much what you write will touch people? HAHA, I certainly will make it.' CHEN's familiar bright laughter made sue feel her heart trembling.

turned to that page in the end. sue looked at the blank page and read,

dear ANE, i don't know why what i say drop to your hands. FIRSTLY, i only want it to be near my pillow, accompany me evry night when i am sleeping. AS It is not so submissive and it is so submissive, it only run to you not others. please accept it and be its master. i think this is its choice and let it sleep with you.

' wow, you are so great! how can you get so good words!!! you are really Li qingzhao was born again.' CHEN often speaks without thinking in front of SUE. His praise often let her fly while his sarcasm put her feet on the ground, just don't say ' i love you to death.'

 to be continued...

sue smiled without giving voice. chen is acting like a child , although she is younger than him, she is more like his elder sister than his younge sister. no, fuck, she help and protect him from everythging she know. sometiems, chen would like to show his hero image, she would show weak of her and chen would feel comfortable, but they often blame each other and laugh after it.

'shut up, listen to me.( i am a real sucker, so when i saw you, i believed you. I couldn't know how much i love you. the feeling i love you sometimes show high and sometimes show low. sometimes i think, in fact, there is no excuse to have it, if i could stop loving you, eveything will be ok.)

after a few minutes of silence, CHEN said again,'you are really something! leave somebody at large in order to apprehend him afterwards, an expert in loveing area! To tell the truth, how many men admire you? hahaha...'

to be continued..

SEVEN years ago, there was a beautiful girl and an ordinary young man in a comapnay.

the girl was the most beautiful girl in the company and she did something like an assistant of the monitor in  a producing department. THe young man was an ordinary man but was a monitor in another producing deaprtmant of the company.

ALL the young men in the company liked to talk about this girl when they were free.

ONe DAY,  several monitors and monitor's heads gathered together and said something about the girl again.

ONe young man asked suddenly that who among of us could chase the girl ang marry her?

The ordinary man said that he could do that. Everyone laughed at him, but he insisted on doing that.

Begin his chasing life after that day.

the ordinary man like all the young man chasing girl often bought fruits and biscuit for the girl and acompanied the girl when he had time.

At first, the girl felt that he was very laughable and gave no response to  what he had done for her and thought that there was no possibility between them.

DAY AFTER ADY, the girl was touched by  the ordinary man. Maybe she thought that girls in the world the happiest thing  was to get a good husband and the ordinary man treated her much well.

THen they were married.

the ordinary man and the beatiful girl lived happily for several year in their poor house.

in those years, the ordianry man's family was very poor and his family only had two rooms for his father , mother, brother, sister and them when they came back from this side.

several years passed, the ordinary man became a manager and built a building which having five floors.

the position of the man changed and he had many dinner parties and other parties. He made friend with many kinds of people, and he fell into it.

at the same time, in their marriage life, the girl had two baby with him and stayed at home taking care of the babies and lived with his father and mother. because the girl is very frankly, say what she want to say, and do not know how to deal with the relation with her father-in-law and mother-in-law, she didn't get along well with them, but the young man was very good to their parents.

the young man fell into love affairs and the girl got along bad with their family.

the young man didn't want to see his wife and didn't asked his wife to go this side. Even his wife went here to take their children to hospital, he didn't give time to them and asked his wife to go home quickly and blamed her that she couldn't take good care of the children for her only thing was to look after the children.

After a year, the young man suggested that he wanted to divorce and his family approved of it.

.........

My young brother, he don't like study and his grade is very low. Now he is in the third Grade of junior high school, will graduate this summer. The main reason is that he don't want to enter into senior high school and his grade is really bad. I have been trying to encourage him, but I couldn't make him change.

he can draw well, but i seldom saw him spend more time on drawing picture. i couldn't understand him.

he want to learn design, but he will only finish junior high school, i worry his future. and he and i don't know what kind of design we should choose? (i haven't told him that i am thinking about something about it, i am just encourage him to go to senior high school.

he want to enter into that kind of vocational school，but many people say that students in it can not learn something just play every day.

A friend said that students couldn't learn much from vocationl school， could learn learn more in traning station ( that like vocational school, a little different from it)than vocational school。

Do you think so? please give some advices.

Thank you!

I have a rope-skipping. I do it seldom. hehe.

LAST year, I wanted to do exercise much, and i found a friend to run with me every moring. we got up at six every day and ran up to the small mountain that have a public road because the small mountain is beautiful and many people go up to pay a visit, the local government built a road across the mountain.

we can run evry day and the air is very good. Every day, the rising sun shined on our body. i felt warm all my body and felt confident about life. it was great. I will not forget.

we insisted on doing it only for a month. BEcause we should got up early and would feel tire in the day time.

We thought about doing rope-skipping and we each bought a rope-skipping and often did it at the beginning.

we forget the rope-skipping later soon.

THESE days i am reading the book of Deng xiaoping theory and three ideas.

when i first saw this book, i thought it had no use to read this book. I left this book in my bookcase for a long time until the teacher told me that we would have a exam soon. but if only for exam, i think it is easy.

another reason is that i think i have spent money on this book, i must learn something from it. So i try to look for time to read it and now i read it every day.

more and more i read, more and more interests i have. I found that every day i want to read this book.

From this book, we got much. I know something about our motherland, for example, what position our motherland is, and something about life, something people around me, something about relationship and so on.

I learn much from it.

Now in the world,

people are afraid to show love to people around us, because there are so many people who maybe hurt you.

i believe that everyone has a good heart, if you give them your love, they certainly will be grateful to it or will be touched in their soul. more and more love will change them.

we should give love to people around us and we will have a lot of love.

yesterday and the day before yesterday, i planed to spend two hours to read the third new concept english, but i didn't do it. when the time came, i listened to english for two hours. in fact, i would rather listen than read that book. The main reason is that i don't want to read the book that have new words.

i know this is a bad idea. i will try to overcome it.

i will tell the good news soon.