Here or There?

I've been messed up for a long time.i don't care what happened to me,what i want now is  i don't want this shit to continue by all means.actually i've been through many things during the for years which i'd never forget.now i'm kinda lost.i remember i was very rational when i watched the american series "Lost".maybe i was just an on-looker on that.however,in reality,i'm an actor and most of time i just hide in my dorm enjoying or degrading.i'm a little worried about my future which's full of fog and branches.i completely have no idea wich way to choose.i don't know where i'm about to arrive,here or there? you know what? i'm gonna find an answer myself.this's my mission worth adventure.time never stops,you know.me,too.