16 days,16 days......At last I have find a job,oh,two companies have recruited me at the same time...

From April 5th, the ex-boss fired me without reason,I had find the job for 16 days.But now 2 jobs ,oh ,my god!

Which job should I have to choose?

The one company has a comfortable and free environment and sales high grade products ,having many legal holidays but low pay; The other company has a bad environment and sales the low grade products and few holidays but high pay.

So ,in my heart ,I just want to work in a comfortable environment and can learn more high-grade knowledge and freedom.

Low pay:800 RMB/Month+add ;High pay:2000/ RMB+add

How can I choose?

Everyday I will call him ,just I call him ,he seldom will call me initiative...

I just think that I had lost my proper pride in his heart so I don not care anything before him.

This afternoon I said something over he can stand.He is so annoyed then cut my call.And then I called him again and again ,more than 15 times but he still ignored mine.I felt so upset and could not help crying.And at last he got the telephone and scolded loudly said"What you do is so over""ka"...

I cried so heavy...only I can do just to send SMS to him and gave him apologize.

I don not why I become like that,and not only others do not like me but also I hate myself.

Now,still bule...

This afternoon I just came again to the ARTMAX to ask the girl that whether the boss would recruited me.

First I came to the front desk reception to find the girl."Hello ,I am here!"I said.She just took a look at me and went on her job.The other girl was following some customers.

After a minuite,the girl sent out the customers and smiled to me and said"You are here,and take a seat pls.""OK,i just look around,ha ha!"

About half an hour, the girl that I just want to ask some quentions said to me ,"Can you help me ?""OK"I said.OH ,she didn't know how to cut the picture that she want.So I help her.

I just went on to ask some question,as "I don't know whether your boss will recruit me ,and I don't know whether it is worth to wait ,and just miss some other chances."

"Pls,don't worry,I will tell the boss when he is back,and ask to come here and gon to work.But you have to be clever and don't say that you are just a graduate and you have to say that you have been a sale for a year,and you do know how to sell the products to the customers.Hmm,but the key point is your spoken English is very well!That will win the chance 85%.Ok?

Oh ,my god!I have to practise the spoken english and make it great effort.Come on!Trust myself!

Today morning,I get some want information from web.I telephoned the factory and wanted to know whether that time will need foreign trade or not.

Hmm,I telephoned it and the girl asked me to enter the interview on that time.

So I went to find the factory according to the girl told me .I saw the company that I had worked last year...I heart was a little upset that time because I fired the boss.I was so sorry but I love everybody there but the job .

Went right then went  left then back then went through the way.Oh ,my job!The factory was so old that I didn't want to get the interview.I was sorry...

Please forgive me!

I know, the boss chooses you and you choose the job.

I just want to have the job that I am interested in and the environment is OK and comfortable!Just it will be OK!

Please give chance!Thank you!

7 o'clock...I just wake up automatily.

So surprise!Yesterday,I went to an Import and Export Company for interview--translation.

I just felt so upset.Through the interview,I was so nervous that what I want to say but at that time my mind is blank.The result was my sopken english is bad.

The boss asked me to be informed in a week.I can not believe myslef can get the job beacuse the impression is so bad.

I feel so sorry.I don't think  I am not ability to do the job,but scare of the interview.

I can't sleep well.I am so worry ...

Everyone has job now,just only me no.I just feel like I am wasting time but nothing to do ...

A blue day!

After the Guangzhou Office Furniture Fair,finished all the after-fair work.The boss fire me.

Shock!!!I was fired.The intent of the boss to recruit me just only for the guangzhou fair...... I was taken used of by their.

And this time was a hard time to find a job.The worldwide Fincial Crisis had endangered China.

A week,so quick.Time goes fast.But I have not find a good job.So down,so down...

I call you once again today...

Every time I call you or I send message to you because I want to see you so much,though now we were thrown up.

I know ,you love me and I love you !But love does not all of your life.

You had not given me concern any more.I feel so sad.

In fact ,I want you will not do anything for me ,I am so afraid of myself. I can't control my love,my action,my miss...

I don't want to disturb your life and everything.Sometimes I will lose my control will call you ,send sms...Do many things without any reason.

I only can cry...then I can't do any other thing.

  I don't know when fear has risen in my heart gradually! 

  Yesterday I particiated in the first test of the driving licenseOh,Unluckily,I failed.In my team ,only me.Then I cried......

  Yesterday I hardly sleeped!I felt so sad not only about this.....just I want to cry ......

  Being cheaped a time deeply I just can't believe myself!Losing my confident !What I can do ?I don't know?

    I only can do just to cry......

    After the   the first time I fall in love with the man!The mistake has begun .I choose the false man that I should not love.

    After breaking up with him.I have lose my confident in everything.I am not the one that before any longer.Everyone loves the before me !

   Long before, I loved smiling with anyone,and laugh at anything easily,so optimism!

   Now,the one I am so passive ,and not interested in everything...I hate me so much!I can't get help from anybody !I feel so terrible...My heart wrench...

  The first love only leave me sad...

  Today I also have to have classes as usual,but suddently I am eager to go home after a nap.This feeling is so strong,but I don't think it is a intellectual idea to do.I can't do this once time on impulse.I am so regret about last time...

  Just last time I was the first time to go home on impulse.The reason for that was my exboyfriend come to zhuhai to visit on me.I was not to wish him leave me,so I went home with him.

  It striked me suddently when I was on the bus that I had not handed in my thesis.Oh,my god!...

  I was so fortune to find one of my friend give me a hand!Thank you!

  Though last time I could deal with this,I was ticked my name by two teaches.555...In a word,I have to drw a lesson from this time that I have to think twice befor I do it.

  Today I also have to have classes as usual,but suddently I am eager to go home after a nap.This feeling is so strong,but I don't think it is a intellectual idea to do.I can't do this once time on impulse.I am so regret about last time...

  Just last time I was the first time to go home on impulse.The reason for that was my exboyfriend come to zhuhai to visit on me.I was not to wish him leave me,so I went home with him.

  It striked me suddently when I was on the bus that I had not handed in my thesis.Oh,my god!...

  I was so fortune to find one of my friend give me a hand!Thank you!

  Though last time I could deal with this,I was ticked my name by two teaches.555...In a word,I have to drw a lesson from this time that I have to think twice befor I do it.

   This is the first time that I set up my first blog!My feeling is so exciting and full of expectation!

  Here I can show all my things in English!The space gives me more space and time and engery to contribute in myself!

  My true passion can easily write here!I love this blog ,love making friends with different countries,different areas,different color people!

  I am long for making friends with you!

  Welcome!!!