The first love

In my heart,there is a girl deeply be stored in my head.and never forgot her,some times ,when i free she will be recall.

Also,when i get up at the morning,she will be remember in my mind,i want to forget her,but i could not do ,since ,she have been married now .therefor,i would like to keep contact with her.and hope could keep the best friendship with she only . i hope to know her news and her life ,also ,include every thing about current her,and hungred to get the messages from she .every word from she will more important for me and could give me strong power ,also ,it could push me up in my cause, I think i could not forget in my life.

Everyone ,the first love will be beautiful and honest,but ,usually ,more people will lost it.same with me ,i really hate myself.i am no a man in this case in my mind.because,i have not to catch up her before.it is a pity for me!

But ,i think it is luck for me, since ,some years late ,i meet her in the street of the home town,and we leave the phone number with each other,so .we could keep contact with each other freely.also, i create a mail address for her with her name,any thing i want to say wiht her ,then, i could senda a mail to her , i get her QQ number ,therefor,contact wiht her is easy if i want to do .but i really could not understand ,why she reply me a little when i send the message or letter to her.

I no hope to happen any thing in our feeling,just hope our friendship could grow up healthily. but seem ,she would like me forget all thing about her ,and she tell me she is not a good and beautiful girl as me say.

But ,i really could not forget her ,i will be happy when i get her message ,but she only give me a little .maybe ,does she worry about me will broken her marriage? but ,i could assure i will never do this and never hold this mind from now and to the future.i do everything all want her will be happy .So.if she no like me contact with her ,i will never do it late.

To hope every thing will be gone !and every thing will be good in my life.i love her for ever!never forget her for ever!