To my beloved

It’s the fourth day that I haven’t contact with you. I wonder what have happened to you? How is everything going recently? Do you have anything interesting to share with me? Will you think of me sometimes? I beg for your forgiveness, sincerely.

From time to time I ask myself whether you are in need of me. Since I can’t miss you. I’m scared of your departure. I miss you so much. But I am even scared of phoning you. As a fact, your voice makes me nervous. Nobody could understand that how depressed I am these days. Can you believe that so many bad things happened to me at the same time? I don’t know what mistake I have made. Why should it be that?

 My dear beloved, you are to me what the sky is to birds. I can’t let you know my discomposure, though I have got into the slough of despond. I’m going to mad. Who can tell me what I ought to do now? How should I cope with this awful situation?

What I am eager to do this moment is to meet you as soon as possible. I would make us cling together closely. I vow. Above all, I shall tell you how much I love you, tell you I can’t lose you. You know, you are the most important to me, who have a great influence on me.

 Those loathsome things and person, Heaven forbidden…